Tuesday, February 21, 2012

The inevitable...?

I'm scared of ending up like you.
I'm scared I'll fall out of love with the one that will do anything to save what we once had, or maybe never did.
I'm scared I'll let the job I don't even like hurt those I "love."
I'm scared I'll have ugly paw hands like you.
I'm scared someone else will raise my children, eh I wont risk it; no kids for me.
I'm scared I will lose myself in a tan, bleached blonde, professional body.
I'm scared I will get mad enough to be remembered. And when my child's best friends younger sister thinks of me, she will fear the same thing I once did.
I'm scared of being short like you.
I'm scared I will have to get an operation on my neck because my goiter is so "ugly." I'll have to wear turtlenecks in the blowup pool with the neighborhood kids. Ha, who am I kidding. I'm to busy to go outside.
But even indoors, I must cover that ugly, infected deformity...naturally.
I'm scared I won't see how beautiful I truly am.
She is so beautiful.
I'm scared I'll find comfort in every bed that isn't mine.
I'm scared of becoming like you.
Hell, I'm scared of you.
I'm...scared.

12 comments:

  1. Really makes me think. . . who is the "you" you are talking about?? i think that a lot of people can fill in that you and relate to this post. way good keep it up.

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  2. Having a goiter is something to be PROUD of! But besides that, great post. I liked the 'ugly paw hands' line

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  3. I really liked how I could relate. It's very good. I liked the "i'm scared of becoming like you. Hell, i'm scared of you."

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  4. "I'm scared I'll find comfort in every bed that isn't mine."
    So good, so relatable to the real world and a very Rational fear I think.
    Super pretty,
    I sure hope you're not talking about me...

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  5. "I'm scared I won't see how beautiful I truly am...
    I'm scared I'll find comfort in every bed that isn't mine... im scared of ending up like you." this post is very powerful, i can feel the emotion behind it. :)

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  6. This is all really good. You opened up in a relate-able way, yet you're fears are still unique. Great writing

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  7. "I'm scared I will get mad enough to be remembered." Love it!!!

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  8. dude this post was great. i like how you just used the repetitiveness of i'm scared. it just makes you think.. who really is brave and courageous? hmm...

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  9. This is sweet. Thanks. Sometimes I don't know how to bring my fears to my attention and all I know is that I'm scared or worried about something. You have helped me identify some of them. Thanks a lot.

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  10. "I'm scared I'll fall out of love with the one that will do anything to save what we once had, or maybe never did"


    oooooo.


    this is so so so soo simple and it just sits there and says a million different things.

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